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Elves live here

I never level capped in the world or warcraft, but I did get to explore and played until maybe the level of 40. I remember playing as an ork shaman and so started off my Wow life in Draenor. I made my way through the world of war-craft just as I am making my way around the USA. The are many parallels between America and Wow. Draenor is Colorado, the land of the dead is obviously New Orleans, Minnesota the dwarven realm, and now here in Seattle I have finally found the land of the elves.

If you look all people that fall under the label of “hippy” you might find a type of hierarchy. Most bums and riff raff here in America will call themselves hippies just because of their openness to new ideas and their convenient socialist ideals. As you climb the hierarchy, hippies become more disciplined and are often found practicing yoga and living a vegan lifestyle. At the very top of the hierarchy some hippies have taken to living in self sustaining tree houses much like the wood elves in Lord of the Rings.

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This type of life is something that I have been seeking for a long time and living here in Seattle has already started to effect my lifestyle in many ways. I have started the vegetarian diet and might send it to the vegan thing here soon and then yoga begins this next week. There is so much from my past that must die and even more in my future that has yet to be born and mature. The fear of falling back into old paths is abound but if not for perfection then what else could we aim for.

A friend of mine has come to me with a business proposition. He has asked me to go in with him in the business of flipping buses. The basics are that we take an old bus and turn it into a quality home for rich people to live out of. The idea of doing my own business and creating for myself is everything I could have wanted. They guy that I would be going into business is my opposite and I might even go so far as to consider him one of the dark order, organizer and leader of goblins, but something more of a man himself. The perfect antithesis of a high elf and everything I could want out of a co-creator.

The reason for writing this paper is to get my thoughts in order so that I can plan effectively for the future. The west coast is everything I could have dreamed of but staying here would mean delaying my dreams of world travel for a considerable amount of time. The risk would be great and I would be putting everything I have into this venture. If something were to go wrong I would be back at rock bottom for sure. A winter spent here in Seattle would be miserable, though a sacrifice that I would not be unwilling to commit. I would be living on a bus that I would also building and converting. I would not have a car. Transportation would be by bicycle and in a city where it rains about 150 days out of the year, most of which are in the winter, it would be quite the sacrifice.

On the other hand, there is the entire coast to explore and even still Australia looms in the distance. A trip down the coast in my Subi followed by a flight to Hawaii and then another jump to Australia and I am back on my world traveler plan. High end potential could be this blog taking off, online business, bartending, and all those side projects that I am constantly focused on. This plan doesn’t give me the knock my socks off business opportunity that I am looking for and so I am swayed to stay in Seattle but my confidence comes from holding back on commitment and waiting to see what thoughts mature and what thoughts do not.

Power over the self is the ultimate goal. Being able to say that you will do something and then following through and doing it is where meaning of self is created. I must admit weakness on this facet of life coming from my life in Denver. Many times did I say that I would change just to find that I could not break free from old habits. Here in Seattle I have already proven to myself that I am not confined by my old ways. What was it that changed that allowed me to make these forceful commands of life? How far can this power be pushed and tested? With what joy it is to discover a new power such as this.

A mantra that I have picked up in the past few weeks is to take it one step at a time. I need to remember to focus on the little things and let the macro unfold from diligently taken individual steps. Tonight I fill up the gas tank and buy groceries. This week I aim to spend no money Monday through Friday. Once you have everything you need the focus of life is left to shift. To what I cannot say. The great unknown is where the treasure hides. To explore uninhibited to find the secrets of life. To create. To destroy. To live by ones own word no matter the cost.

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Car life>hammock life, sometimes 

Car life is great. I can’t wait to take it to the coast where I will be able to explore from my super mobile home. For now, I am still in the building phase and am working on building the car into the home of my dreams. It needs a passenger window, new carpet, and there are a few cosmetic improvements that can be made. I have been watching different youtube videos that people have made that show off the different style of living that people have invented for their subarus. Some of the youtubers have solar and water collector which is a bit beyond my price point, but a wooden framed that fits into the back seat would be nice. Maybe some cardboard cutouts to fit onto the windows. A disco ball. A play for two.

Currently, I live on the outside of society. Not having a single place that I stay and call home makes it so that I am something other than main stream. Not having a mailing address is difficult in that my first check from where I work will be sent to a location that I do not reside in. All government documentation is mailed and I am currently using my mothers address who lives 5 states away. It’s frustrating that society assumes that you live in a house and if you don’t then you are going to have to figure these nuanced things out. I signed up for this however, and do not regret my decision. At this very moment I sit in a coffee shop next to people that dress like they have a house, a car, a job… Most of these people have probably been going to the same job for years and have savings accounts and maybe even a house. I am so far removed from this type of life that I now feel on the outside looking in. I am beginning to wonder if starting a career and saving up enough money to “fit back in” with the mainstream might be the things that I want to do. (Reading this paragraph through I think- classic, a guy that lives in the rough desires comfort).

The people I went to school with have all graduated and are now making more money than they have an idea of what to do with. I don’t have a way to grasp how much I owe in school loans and also don’t have a definite plan of paying it off. My school friends make plans to travel but something like three years down the road, after they have saved up enough money to make the trip in luxury. That looks like a really good idea for the perspective of my car, but there is no way I could ever wait that long.

I value the experiences that I have had so far but wonder if I might be able to choose a better path for myself. One adventure to the next is something that would be hard to give up, maybe impossible. The wear and tear of life feels like it might get to me at some point and I might then be forced into choosing something different. For now I will continue down the path of the unknown. I wish to be in Australia and that is where my sight still lies. A month or two of work and then I will be off to continue with the great adventure. I will need to figure out how to make money doing the coast over the next few months. This week will be focused on the car. Next week I cannot say. The week after that is still a greater mystery and from then until death anything could happen.

Living out of a Subaru

Today I woke up in the back of my Subaru and took 15 minutes to meditate on where I am in life and where I am going. I am literally parked in the Sodo area of Seattle Washington, close to my friends bus and close the garage that I ride pedicabs out of. Last night was the first night spent in the Subaru. I changed sleeping positions three different times throughout the night. Today I will get some proper bedding for the fold down back seat and then next week I might head south for trim work and fit myself nicely into this west coast kind of life.

My friends are starting to take off in success and I am here, getting thrown all over the United States having to rebuild from zero time and time again. My experiences come with me and I am more competent at building a life than I have ever been. Right now I feel that its time to set my sites on one plan and stick with it. Right as I make up my mind to do this however a million options open up. Only the near future seams certain. In about a week I will head south with some friends in search of trim work. Trim work is not something I am fond of but it would be a way to make money without spending. After trim season I could head even further south and explore what is going on in LA and other parts of SoCal. It would be there that I sell the Subaru and head out to Australia for the adventure that I had originally planned on making.

There is another plan however, that could push the Australian adventure back about 8 months. Here in Seattle my best friend is a guy who turns old school busses into mobile homes. He is making a great argument in my mind that  could get me to stay here in Seattle and convert a bus over the winter into a place thats able to transport pedicabs around the states to different festivals. This would involve me investing quite a bit into building the bus and also into building a pedicab that is festival worthy. After the festival season comes to an end I would be able to sell all of my equipment, take what I have earned, and head out to Australia like I had originally planned.

As I talk about great plans with different friends that I have made over the years, we all talk about what we are going to do with this coming summer and skip over talk of the winter. It seems like everyone is going to hibernate for the winter. I cannot let this come to pass. It seems vauge to head south for the winter. I would like to travel to some distant place where I can make money or maybe work another winter on the mountain but still the issue of money comes into play. Perhaps Hawaii, or maybe Australia, or maybe here in Seattle.

There is so much to do and so little time to do it and the coffee does nothing but stimulates this feeling. For now I will go and speak with my friends about great things before heading out on the town to make money and then head back to my car to sleep. Good things are happening. Good connections are being made. Life is good and it’s alwasy time to act.

Australia baby here I come

It feels like it’s all going to work out and come together just in the nick of time. It’s been too long that I have been under pressure to complete some task without the necessary resources, but now I have what I need to make the leap across the sea. All my bags are packed and I’m ready to go. As of today, there are two weeks until I leave for Australia. I do not know what I will get into in the remaining two weeks but I am sure that it will be an adventure worth writing about.

After working at Powder Mountain ski resort for the winter I returned to Colorado with 50 dollars and came to start saving money for the trip I am about to depart on. I was able to do exactly what I set out to do here in CO and was able to partake in a few extra adventures along the way. Some of which include working as a bartender for my first time, pirate party festival in Montana, getting a motorcycle, the hail storm, and then general adventuring around the city and in the mountains. There were more setbacks that I am willing to admit, and I am still working on not reacting negatively when life gives you the ol’ one two. Surely, I am making my way.

This past weekend I visited the family in Minnesota and was able to see all the close members that I have not seen too long. My mom’s new house, my brother’s awesome life, and my dad’s cabin in the woods. I know that I will miss them more than anything and this visit will be like my last breath of air as I plunge beneath the surface of America and my home.

There is so much to do. I still have not bought my plane ticket and will need to get on that as soon as I have my passport in had. I will need to figure out what to do with my remaining two weeks. The choice is between riding Vegas pedicabs or going to Portland to explore. I am leaning towards portland but cannot say for sure. I will make my decision at the last possible moment. Contacting my pedicab friends in CO and asking them if they want to go to Vegas is another option.

I am spending less of my time looking back. When I do look back it’s to learn from the past. To think about my wrongs and ways that I can correct so that when I am overseas I do not make mistakes that could potentially be catastrophic. More of my thought is put into the future and as the day come closer and closer I become more and more excited. I am sure that things will not go according to plan. I feel like they will go better, actually. Some things that are within the plan that I am looking forward to are things like pedicabbing in Melbourne, getting barreled on a surfboard, learning to scuba dive, seeing friends that are living on the other side of the world, living and loving in and outside of a car. Australia baby here I come!

The Start of the Daily Vlog

In Nicomachean Ethics Aristotle describes three approaches to knowledge. Episteme: Meaning “to know” relates to universal truths and works with foundational beliefs by which to build a framework that is context independent. Techné: The rational method by which a result is produced. Phronesis: The rational deliberation upon true beliefs. As with the start of any journey, the start of the daily vlog is an incomprehensible task that has me grasping all the way back to my Nicomachean roots in order to get a foothold by which I might be able to tackle the beast. I can already feel how the vlog is gripping my life as I become obsessed by grabbing that next bit of footage, reaching out to that key individual, getting to that next level. The reason for any form of type communication is to inform and here in the daily vlog you will get information about the challenges that face the start of any project focused on the challenges that face a vlog. Here now, I present to you the first of many to come.

 

Episteme

For me, the inspiration to start a vlog came from a deep seated desire to have unfettered freedom. As I thought through the idea of freedom it lead me to the idea that I must do what I love and do it well. I know that I am loving life and so for me, it’s about finding these things that I am already doing and loving and presenting them in a way that is marketable and remarkable. What I love is to learn, to adventure, to express, and to joy. In the end, truth always wins. Love is the most powerful thing we can know. Anything that’s worth doing takes work.

 

Techné

There are two topics that I am just starting to learn and these are social media and video editing. In the article to come much of my focus will be placed on learning in these new realms of knowledge. I could see it being useful for others that are learning the same thing and entertaining to those that have been through it before. With video editing I am just getting into the basics but will be self educating my way to the finer points soon. Basic strategy for networking is to create great content and spend a majority of my time reaching out to other individuals who are creating in a similar domain. At this point that means finding people like me and then asking them intriguing questions that have the potential to start great conversations. The foundational belief for how to network can be summarized with one word, care.

 

Phronesis

By using tools to express values can we come to a practical understanding of wisdom. When it comes to social media and film editing I am a newborn pup. When it comes to organizing a plan of attack for learning new topics I confident in my burning desire to overcome all obstacles. When it comes to putting my personality out in a way that delivers a story that captivates and educates, it’s something I have been doing my entire life.

 

Clearly there are great challenges that obstruct individuals from gaining success when it comes to the world of video production. I can already tell that it’s a great mountain to climb. At the moment I am empowered by my values and what I feel is right. So far I am enjoying myself to a large degree and am excited to see what is to come. If you have read this far then it’s worth checking out the youtube channel- ant8731. I am always looking for feedback on anything and everything so let me know what you think. Thank you and see you soon.

Brothers Fight

Men have a different way of going through life than women. We could say that biologically men’s lives are less valuable than women’s in that it only take one man to carry on the population while it would take many women to have many many children. When we look at the lives of men we see that men die more often by risky behavior like stunts and car crashes pointing to the idea that men have a biology that is designed differently with things like social power in leadership and prestige being valued as much more important. This is not to say that women do not have such a thing in their lives it’s just that with women the nurturing instinct is much more developed and for the good reason of the children and the family.

Often times men will grow up in a patriarchal family where, from the time of Cain and Able it has been observed that the son will have the desire to overthrow the patriarch, the father. You can see this with kings of the past going on for centuries. In many cultures the transfer of power was almost always violent. With the king at the top it often times was up to one of his sons to replace him. Which son was to replace him was the question that provided the tension between brothers.

Growing up outside of royalty, my brother and I had a more civil relationship though not without conflict. Looking back I can see the harm that I did to him and the recoil from this harm and how this has effected me. Brothers fight in the sense of wrestling and other games where we would both try and get the best of each other. Being the older brother I would almost always win and would then make it a point to show how much better I was than him in additional displays of strength. This eventually backfired as my brother stopped wanting to play any more games with me. He could not get away with playing no games with me however as we had many of the same friends and groups of friend play games with each other inevitably.

To this day my brother and I seldom talk and despite my best efforts I get a call from him maybe a handful of times per year. When I think about what has brought us to this point in our relationship, besides all the times that I would not allow him to play his choice of video game or not use the TV, there are a few key instances that come to mind. There was the time that we convinced him that by strapping him into a dog harness that we could then hoist him up into a tree and thus climb any tree we wanted. After getting him 30 feet in the air my friend and I tied our end to a different tree leaving him suspended while we left to eat lunch. We were not gone that long but when we got back he was distraught. Another time we mummified him in duct tape to the point where he was unable to moved. These are the things that make me laugh about my childhood and I look back at with fond memories. There are darker parts of our past however that are harder to get into.

My brother left for the military shortly after college. After returning from basic training he came home with confidence that we had not seen in him before. It was great for the entire family, but when it came time to choose which video game to play it was bad for both him and I. I had been at my own school and was currently in my third year and so my brother and I had not been spending much time in the same location. I believe it was Christmas break for both of us and spending time together was something we were both not used to. When the video games came into conflict violence broke out immediately. In a way similar to WWII this was the last time my brother and I got into any type of physical fight. It was the most violent fight either of us had ever been in and ended with a black eye for me and getting kicked out of the house for him. We have not been the same since that point. It would be nice to have a brother that is confident about his ability to handle the world but I could not let this confidence tread in an area that I felt was mine. I can imagine it would have been a blow to his ego to learn that his military training still could not take down the enemy of a brother that he had at that moment and must have changed something in him to avoid rather than confront.

I still believe that later in life we will both become closer to one another. Maybe it will take a colossal event like both of us having kids, but someday in the future my brother and I will be on a similar level. It’s impossible that we stop being brothers and so no matter how much we hate one another we will always be in each others lives. The fight between brothers has been going on for so long that it’s built into all of our minds. We know how brothers act and to learn about myself in this way I can learn about everyone, because everyone knows that brothers fight.

CBD Oil

A Cannabidiol (CBD) is part of the cannabis plant that doesn’t get you high. With the discovery that CBD oil’s positively effect things like anxiety and psychosis, the market for CBD oil has been steadily climbing. With a market that’s expected to grow 700% within the next three years, the hemp derived CBD oil industry is something that going to be hard to overlook whether you are an investor, in the health profession, or a consumer that’s interested in some of the newest and best ways overcome the challenges we all face in everyday life. This is a movement and with every movement there are three things that we can look into when doing our investigation. First, the history or CBD oil and where it came from. Second, what is so great about it and why it’s are gaining so much attention. Third, what we can expect to see from the CBD oil industry in the future.

CBD rich plans have long been used to treat a myriad of health problems. In the 19th century Queen Victoria used CBD rich cannabis to help with menstrual cramps and animal studies have long shown that CBD can help with anxiety as well as reduce the severity and frequency of seizures. For the majority of the history of the cannabis plant, farmers have bread with the purpose of getting the plant that produces the best high and thus, the THC aspect of the plant has been exalted reducing the CBD’s found in most North American strains to trace amounts. It was only in the spring of 1998 that a British government licensed a company called GW Pharmaceuticals to grow cannabis with the specific design of producing as much CBD in a plant as possible and thus as CBD oil as possible. As we know more about how CBD oil’s effect people that suffer from severe seizures, the demand for CBD oil has risen and many other companies have developed similar process in order to get the CBD oil to those that need it.
Anecdotal evidence has been reported to point to the effect that CBD oil can have a positive effect on people that have a hard time controlling their bodies. From my own life; visiting the relatives for Christmas this year I was introduced to my Aunts boyfriend who suffered from a rare form of epilepsy that he developed later in his life. You could tell that this was a man who had a well developed mind but that his body would not listen to his mind like it once did. From the outside this looked to be a situation that caused unrelenting frustration. Not being one for alternative medicine he had not yet tried CBD oil as a way to relieve him from his struggle. We gave him some oil that another one of my relatives had made special for this occasion. The effects took less than an hour. By then the spasms that had prevented him from finishing a full sentence were gone and we could all participate is discourse coolly and calmly. It was something spectacular to watch, to say the least. Anecdotal evidence is not strong enough evidence for the DEA and currently new double blind research projects are being fast tracked into action because of the positive effects that CBD oil has found in anxiety and psychosis. It feels like they know it’s good for you, now they just need to prove it.
The Future of the CBD oil industry looks promising at least. The demand for new strains that are high in CBD’s has brought plants up to a 20-1 CBD to THC ratios and that number looks like it will continue to climb. In Washington State there are over 800 different CBD products on the market and because the DEA is still working on conclusive research, these companies can’t overtly state what the benefits of taking their product will be. This makes it a confusing time to be a consumer that is interested in CBD oil. Soon the research will be out and the playing field with be better defined. What can be said is that there is a large market force that is pushing CBD oil into the lime light. With an industry that’s expected to grow 700% within the next three years this is something that cannot be overlooked.
The benefits of CBD oil has been known for centuries and only just now is the market tuning into this wisdom and using it to help some of the most helpless people in our society. As this awareness rises so will the demand for CBD products and soon we are going to see CBD take an even bigger portion of the spotlight when it comes to helping people face challenges that now have new potentialities to be overcome.