It’s been two weeks since I had a good shower. I took a small late night dip in the river when it was dark enough that no one could see my naked body. I didn’t submerge myself making the cleaning process more of a rinsing process. At least I got to clean my butt out. Still, rinsing myself out in the water most likely made me look more like a dirty kid with all the water makes covering my body, and it didn’t do well for the smell either. It was at about this time that I started to obsess over a shower.
I started sleeping on another side of the mountain just the other day. The problem is that I am always making camp at night when no one can see past a few feet. What looks like it is a nice and secretive camp turns out to be mad in the open when daytime rolls around. Early in the morning I am often startled and put on edge by a casual hiker passing by. There is also the matter of storing my pack; close enough to the action but now in a place where it could be found. My meditation is slipping as well. I have been in the habit of meditating every morning off and on for well over three years now. Whenever I fall out of the habit it’s a sign that my discipline is slipping and that I need to get my shit together. In this situations the reason is obvious. I’m sleeping in a fucking hammock on the side of the mountain. That’s really no excuse though. The cold of the morning air is what is really stopping me but this can be solved by putting on a sweater while I sit.
For the past day or so something foul has been moving through my body and this morning is when my body decided it had enough. Around six in the morning I climbed out of my hammock, leaned my butt over a tree, and let something bubble out onto the ground. Not having access to a shower I was forced to sit with this all day. It wasn’t as bad as I am making it sound but on my mind all day was the thought of cleaning myself out. I arrived back from Denver and looked up the nearest swimming pool and used their free showers and soap to clean off the past two weeks of dirt. I feel like a new person.
I have taken great strides to make friends and escape a type of loneliness. Which reminds me that I should email my friend about the incredible hulk. And now I can speak on this topic with an amount of authority. For the area of the human experience that is lonely and can’t seem to bridge the gap of friendship and companionship, for those that find themselves perpetually repeating a cycle you first have to get out of a negative mindset. I recommend a shower. If a shower is enough to brighten your day, then you can progress into meeting new people and forming the start to a relationship that has the potential to turn into something greater. That is where I am at now. I have many acquaintances but it took that shower to get me to the point of perusing the next step of relations.
Let you know how it goes.